On July 14 2018, my life changed forever. I was 24 years old, and not on a path anyone had envisioned my life being on. Living from hotel to hotel, in my car when there wasn’t enough money, and deep in my addiction to methamphetamine. I had become a person I did not recognize.
I had no aspirations apart from scoring my next high, and no real intentions of doing anything to better my situation that didn’t involve committing a felony. I had no self esteem, no motivation, no dreams, no joy, and very little will to live.
To put it lightly, I was in a constant state of misery with no clue how to change anything. Even when things were good, there was no peace. It was exhausting... mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually... completely draining. I was at a place in my life where I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to continue living in the situation I was in any longer. I prayed to God at night, something I hadn’t done in quite some time, and told him I was ready. I was ready for a change. And if things weren’t going to change then I was okay if I drifted off to sleep and did not wake up in the morning. I could not bear the thought of waking up another day to the same thing I had been waking up to for the past three years...
On July 14, 2018 my prayers were answered. I didn’t know it, but my life had changed… forever.
